Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Bats in the Belfry

So I'm insane :p

Ok maybe not really, but not far off. Been certified severely depressed. See, I don't know whether to laugh or cry at that. So many things have probably caused this, but the neds/ignoramuses smashing the car windscreen didn't help(which we had to sell..( it failed the mot :'( ), and being ill so much hasn't helped, and maybe the MS diagnosis has finally hit me (even tho its been a few years since diagnosis). Who knows, there are so many things that could be and probably are causing me stress right now :/ Of course not really sleeping since last Tuesday probably doesn't help much either.

So since I haven't wanted to really do anything, one sign of depression I now know, it explains the lack of blog posts and the general lack of art. So I'm going to try to fix that, even tho the Dr. has signed me off from college for a month to see how I react to the crazy pills :)

I don't promise to ever talk about it again, I don't like talking about health issues, but sometimes they just get in the damn way of things. I don't want to turn this blog into something where people think I'm just whining about health problems.

So complete change of topic, the picture is for the Monday photo of the week (a day late oops). The theme was your favourite mug and the creme egg mug is my favourite mug, even tho it has a chip in the rim *cries* I'm going to have to keep my eye out for a new one this year. hmm and I wonder if I could find the creme egg ice cream, odd looking stuff but really tasty :D

21 comments:

2paw said...

Bah humbug to all the bad health issues. It can take over your entire life. Feel free to chat about your health, I have no qualms about doing it on my blog it!! Hope the crazy tablets work soon and you feel like doing things you like again, and no more hoons do hoony things either.

Linda Fleming said...

I knew there was something wrong other than you just not having anything to say. Jennifer, I hope the meds help! I was on antidepressants (Paxil)for several years after my diagnosis and they really helped. I don't take anything now, so I still have mini bouts of depression but so far have been able to pull myself out of the dark hole.I think the mild FL winters and abundance of sunshine help me now. But those long dark cold winters in IL just about killed me. You might want to try those full spectrum lights during your winter months.

Hang in there, Jennifer, it will get better, I promise. Sendin big cyber hugs your way (((( ))))

Linda Fleming said...

Oops- forgot to say I love your colorful mugs. My favorite is the striped one in the back.

Liesl (Hoppo Bumpo) said...

Hey, hope things are looking up soon - I think most of the things you mention would get most people down. You seem pretty sane to me :) Hopefully your doctor will sort out medication quickly. In the meantime be kind to yourself ... oooh, and go find some of those creme eggs. They make everything better.

CurlyPops said...

The diagnosis sucks but i hope you feel better soon! I never put any of my health stuff on the blog either. I'd rather just pretend it's not there.

Serena said...

Cool mug!

I'm so sorry you're having a tough time health-wise but please know that we ARE here for you if you need to talk. I'm only an email away. Depression is such a horrible thing to deal with so I'm sending you lots of empowering vibes to help you beat that depression down. I'm always reminded of the saying...this too, shall pass. It's so true. Our lives are full of ups and downs and, sometimes, we can use the downs to just rest and re-energise...gather our strength for perhaps a busy and prosperous time ahead.

MaryO said...

I could have sworn I commented here yesterday (you know the memory is the first thing to go when you're old like me). I like that lovely mug, but I'm so sorry you're feeling so rough. I haven't had severe depression but one of my best friends is on medication for it and doing well now for a very long time. So I'm hoping you will do well, too, sweetie. Hang on and let the medication do its job....and you are NOT insane! Hugs.......

Michelle (artscapes) said...

Sending you a hug... and a message!

Leslie Hawes said...

Why should you be the only one that isn't certifiable? :)
Glad you could join us!
oxoxoxoxox

Mary Jane said...

Hey Jennifer. So sorry to hear that you have been feeling sad. I think we have all experienced depression at various times to varying degrees and I am so glad you are under your doctor's care and I hope the meds help you get back to your creative wonderful self. Be good to yourself please. You are an artist and you are sensitive and thoughtful and very kind.

Teresa Mallen said...

So sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I hope the meds are very helpful. Go easy on yourself, this may take a bit of time to sort out. Don't worry if you are not your blogging self for awhile, we aren't going anywhere. :-)

Stacy said...

Jennifer, so sorry to hear you are having a rough go. I understand not wanting to talk about health stuff here, but sometimes talking helps. You have had a lot to deal with lately. It would be a lot for anyone to deal with. Try not to be too hard on yourself.

One thing you might want to look into is having your vitamin D levels checked. Where I live we have very gray winters. I used to get so grumpy I could hardly stand to be with myself and I'd get a bad case of "I don't wannas". Now I take vitamin D during the winter months and the grumpies and don't wannas don't seem to visit anymore. I also try to get some time outside when it's sunny, even if I have to wear 87 layers! And I've been known to seek out the sun spots in my house like a cat. What can I say? A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

I hope you are feeling better soon!

Michelle Eaton said...

I am sorry to hear about what you are going through at the moment. I hope the doctor takes good care of you. I think blogging about this stuff helps so don't hesitate because you are worried, we are all hear to listen.

I love your mug. I LOVE Cadburry creame eggs!! They are one of my favourites at easter time. I haven't heard of the ice cream though. I must look into this :)

kaslkaos said...

You never blog too much about your health. It took me just about forever to figure out you had ms; you've had/have a big bundle carry, and you usually come across so chipper. Reading between the lines, sometimes I worry about what's going on. So now it's spelled out. Hoping that with the diagnosis you get what you need, and are in good hands. Get well, and take care.
And yeah, as usual, you are making me hungry again. I love cream eggs,scoop out the good stuff first then enjoy the chocolate next (this takes all of two minutes)

salem said...

You are being way too hard on yourself!. I am glad the doctors have validation of what is unbalanced currently. So they can better treat it and support you. Your have had a great deal to contend with both good and bad. It has put a strain on your entire body, so it just said "no more" for now. You can blog any day on how you are feeling-no worries. You are so very special, exciting, and caring person. Karma will give back in good and bad forms. We had our just bought car damaged too= keyed right to the metal on all 6 sides (top & bottom. The night we brought it home. Oh just in case you didn't know you have Great good karma. You bring me up when I am down too-hope this helps =keep on writing and blogging when you can. Love so much a friend!

Tweed Delights said...

Hi Jennifer - sorry you're having such a rough time : / Things will get better I'm sure - look after yourself and take it easy :) xx

Perpetual Chocoholic said...

I've been on crazy pills for 6 years now due to a pretty severe case of anxiety disorder. Once they kicked in when I hit my optimal dose after about 6 weeks I felt alive for the first time in my life. I had a great time! Now at times they make me depressed and I reduce them. It's nice to have options.

Funny, there was a study that did show that many people with mental illness were quite talented artistically speaking. That's not to say that all artistic people are mentally ill, it's just they can't figure out why so many artistically inclined people are.

Perpetual Chocoholic said...

Also, there's some pretty exciting possible discoveries on the MS front of late too, right! Maybe even a cure?!

Ann said...

That's a great mug but now you're making me want chocolate. I'm sorry to have missed this post and to hear you have been feeling badly. I am glad you are getting help but don't forget to be kind to yourself. You have an awful lot going on with school etc. and I know it can all get overwhelming. I don't think you blog too much about health issues at all anyway. Take care - I too, am sending good healing thoughts your way.

Anonymous said...

hey
been a while since i checked this out (crappy connection) miss you lotts and hope you get the right level of meds u need to help. Dont worry about blogging about heath issues alot of people care about you and sometimes the only way to find out whats up is to read your site. i wish i could help more and destress your life for you just know i love you and think your the best sis
xoxox

Kerry said...

I hope you are feeling better, take care of yourself and I hope things start looking up soon.
Love your bright happy coffee mugs!